Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Thankyou to the sweeties who emailed me about yesterday's post, luv yahs, mwah :)

For others, it was a huge misunderstanding which has now been cleared up and all is well again ~ well, as far as that part of my life goes anyway, the rest still sucks lol.

Tomorrow I'm going away for a few days, five to be exact. I don't want to but it was booked ages ago and it's not something I can get out of.

I won't be able to access a computer (it's highly unlikely anyway) so once I do the rounds of you all I'm outta here because tsk @ me, I still haven't packed yet.

Everyone take care and I'll see you when I get back.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Got this in an email a few days ago and it's so me at the moment ~ thought I'd share.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Yesterday's mush is today's blubbering mess.

Some things never get any easier no matter how long they've been going on or how much you tell yourself you should be used to it.

The headache I've been fighting for three days is now turning into a migraine. It's simmering, I can feel it, I've taken the usual measures and I'll be giving in to it soon. By the time the tunnel vision starts I'll be curled up in a ball in bed, bucket beside me, wishing I was wrapped up in the arms of the only one who can make me feel better.

God how pathetic is this. Now I'm pissed off with myself again. I don't need sympathy, just a good kick up the ass.

Time to give in and take what the meds have to offer. Those sweet waves of drowsiness are beginning to wash over me and I'm going to relish them ... for more reasons than one.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

The Mushter's in Mushy Mode

I'm a bundle of mush at the moment. I'm like this a lot but most of the time I keep it to myself. I was sent this song today and I love, love, love it ... and what's more is I love that the person who sent it to me loves it.

Wow, how's that for a sentence lol.

So, if you're not into mush, look away now ;)

Love You More by Racoon
Clouds above go sailing by
I found my meaning in this life
Clear white is flying in my eyes
Underneath a blue, blue sky
The waves come rolling in with the tide
I've been away too long
And every day I missed you more
You look like you did before
Only prettier
Every day I love you more
All the people rushing by, by, by
Looking for meaning in this life
So used up, and blinded by lies
They're underneath the blue, blue sky
The way they seldom seem to smile
I don't know why
'Cause I've been away too long
And every day I missed you more
You look like you did before
Only prettier
Every day I love you more
I love you more
Every day I love you more
And more
'Cause I've been away too long
And every day I missed you more
You look like you did before
Only prettier
And every day I missed you more
And more and more and more and more
I've been away too long
And every day I missed you more
Oh you look like you did before
Only prettier
Every day I love you more
I love you more
Every day I love you more.

Monday, October 17, 2005

Suckitysuckitysucksuck

Sucking ... sometimes it can be a good thing huh ;)

Ah well that's not the kind I'm talking about today. If you're a regular visitor you'll know by now that my life pretty much sucks at the moment. If you're new here I have one piece of advice ... runnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ... run away from here now, as fast as you can and don't look back because my posts suck. My blog sucks. In the frame of mind I'm in at the moment EVERYTHING sucks.

And you know what else? (Besides the fact I always get confused about whether you should really start a sentence with and) I'm so sick of being the 'good girl', of doing what's expected of me, of not upsetting people, the one who picks up after everyone, the one who worries about everything, the one who's thrown aside if something else comes up, the one who waits till everyone else is ready, the one who has to change plans for everyone else .... and the one who is the most evil bitch in the world if I ever say anything about it all.

Friday, October 14, 2005

My New Course

I've decided I'm going to study witchcraft. The first spell I want to learn is to teleport myself. The second will be to do this (but without the fuzzy shit that's happening lol) ...



And on a totally unrelated matter ... why are tampon strings so short?

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

My Town



Weird things are going on with my computer lately. These weren't the pics I had in mind when I decided to post but the one I was going to use has suddenly disappeared. It's probably somewhere but not showing up in any searches. It happened with some music I downloaded last night too.

The one I was going to show you was much nicer. I pinched it from one of the newspapers a few days ago. It was Melbourne at dusk, with a beautiful pink sunset and the MCG (Melbourne Cricket Ground) lit up.

Anyway I'll get back to the arduous task of trying to fix my pos comp.

Update: Duh! Scratch that, I found it in my "Mess" folder lol.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

A Fillerinerer.....

Apologies for the lack of posts. I'm still feeling empty and I know I'm being my usual clam-like self but that's what I'm like when I'm going through a low point.

So, here's a bit of trivia about the past few weeks ...

~ I lost 4kg :/ lol
~ My Dutch is improving (and not just swear words) :p
~ There was a swan that decided it didn't like me (bloody racist) and hissed every time I walked past it
~ Me being 5'4, I always feel like I'm in the Land of the Giants over there
~ Their weather is disastrous for my hair
~ Their weather is fantastic for my skin
~ Booze is cheap, cheap, cheap
~ Ok so is dope but I didn't buy any lol
~ No matter how many times or how long I'm there, I still look the wrong way when crossing the road
~ I was finally able to satisfy my craving for smulrols after too long an absence
~ And appeltaart met slagroom
~ If you're ever stopping over or changing flights in Singapore, get your duty free things there
~ Do not, I repeat NOT be conned into buying one of their "Special Pies" (in Singapore I'm talking about), they are AWFUL lol.
~ I was happy again
~ I was me again


zucht...

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Oh, before I forget ...

Dear JI,

May allah rip your heads off, shit down your throats and stuff your penises up your backsides for your recent tantrum in Bali.

Amen!

Monday, October 03, 2005

Ground Control?

More like Major Tom floating around in space.

My life is a farce.

I'm not living where I want to live ~ I'm not living with the person I want to live with ~ I'm not doing what I want to do.

So change it? Can't. I'm a big one for saying everyone has choices but you can only choose to a certain point. Some things are just out of our hands and there isn't a damn thing we can do about them no matter how much we want to.

What do I see for the future? More of the same. Waking up every day, going through the motions like a robot, smiling and saying fine thanks when asked how I am ... occasionally the bubbling volcano inside erupting, but for the most part, dying inside a little more with each passing day.

Wacha doin' way down here? ;)