Ground Control?
More like Major Tom floating around in space.
My life is a farce.
I'm not living where I want to live ~ I'm not living with the person I want to live with ~ I'm not doing what I want to do.
So change it? Can't. I'm a big one for saying everyone has choices but you can only choose to a certain point. Some things are just out of our hands and there isn't a damn thing we can do about them no matter how much we want to.
What do I see for the future? More of the same. Waking up every day, going through the motions like a robot, smiling and saying fine thanks when asked how I am ... occasionally the bubbling volcano inside erupting, but for the most part, dying inside a little more with each passing day.
My life is a farce.
I'm not living where I want to live ~ I'm not living with the person I want to live with ~ I'm not doing what I want to do.
So change it? Can't. I'm a big one for saying everyone has choices but you can only choose to a certain point. Some things are just out of our hands and there isn't a damn thing we can do about them no matter how much we want to.
What do I see for the future? More of the same. Waking up every day, going through the motions like a robot, smiling and saying fine thanks when asked how I am ... occasionally the bubbling volcano inside erupting, but for the most part, dying inside a little more with each passing day.
posted by Mushster at 11:45 am
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Aw Mushy ~ I have such empathy/sympathy for you. I have many days with similar feelings. *hugs* and an ear if ya need it. :)
Atomic ~ Yes you're right and I have tried to make some changes in that regard but even still, I find it's only a mask that covers what's really underneath.
I know it sounds very negative but I am thankful for some things.
Thanks for stopping by and commenting :)
Seamy ~ sigh, an ear could very well lead to a very wet shoulder. Wanna take off to Hawaii for a while? lol
I remember those feelings all to well Mush Babe. Im here if you ever just wanna vent.
Hugs and love
dying inside a little bit at a time?
I've been there too.
I'm here holdin your hand and listening.
QM ~ Yeah I've been here before too and I know it can get a hell of a lot worse. Thanks :)
Hugs Musey ~ I know you get it xxx
Fly ~ Sometimes I wonder who I'll be at the end of it all, if there'll be anything left of 'me', whoever that is these days. I guess all we can do is hang on to the hope of 'one day' ...
Hugs sweetfly xx
deep breath and hanging on, that's important stuff....life can change so fast in either direction.....hang baby hang
Mush,
Too bad we can't revise the things we need when it's clear we can't get them...
I'm hangin' Edge, I'm hangin'
Firehawk ~ I suppose it feels like giving up if we do that and even when we do, there's still that little trace of hope underneath.
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