Quick Note

Going away tomorrow, not that you'd notice anyway considering I'm rarely around these days. It's a relief to be getting away from the evil people for a while. Hope we get good weather. Scooting now to get around to see how you're all doing.

Have a good weekend all.

So....

...yeah

Nuther Wednesday off and guess what I'm doing (Wednesday is tomorrow for you poor people living in the past) :D

I'll be spending the day meeting with solicitorsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss yipfreakinee

I should copy and paste the whole story from another board I'm on (the short story in point form from a self-help board I now only occasionally have time to get to). I might tomorrow if I have time but if I don't, please forgive me.

Oh btw, I'm pissed outta my mind at the moment.

Miss ya's all! Really!

Edit: I just re-read this and I mean piised as in drunk, not pissed as in shitty. Ciao bellas and bellos.

My Wonderful Day Off

~ The ducted heating has died for some reason
~ I'm frozen
~ Had to cancel my hair appointment because I have to waste all day waiting for the repairman
~ Oh but it'll be before 4pm
~ Just as well because I have to pick the teen up from whoop whoop in peak hour traffic to get her to work because the public transport connections won't get her there in time
~ I've had 4 hours sleep
~ I had to deal with the Wicked Bitch of the West at work yesterday
~ I cried all night over it all
~ I'm sick of control freaks, incompetent fools, dictators and backstabbers
~ That's all ... my fingers are numb and my eyes are sore

This n That

I don't have anything exciting to report ~ just same shit, diff day really but let's see...

~ Friday night I went to see an AC/DC tribute band. I was far enough away (or maybe it's just old age screwing up my eyesight) that they looked like the real thing and more importantly, sounded like the real thing.

I wasn't as excited as when I saw Babba (the Abba tribute group) but the voice is still a little husky lol.

During the night as I was making my way through the crowd to the loo it felt like I'd kicked something. On my way back I was confronted by a big, mean looking dude who said I owed him a drink seeing I'd knocked his over. I looked up (and up and up and up lol) and said "sorry but I owe you nothing, what kind of idiot puts his drink on the floor anyway?" and then I bolted lol. I was with 2 karate guys, a black belt and a brown belt, so I knew I'd be pretty safe if I made it back to them hehe.

Anyway, I noticed on my way out that this place has regular tribute bands (I missed Bon Jovi a few weeks ago damnit) so I might make this a semi-regular outing from now on.

~ My footy team (Essendon Bombers) won last night (ABOUT TIME!) so yaaaaaaaaay

And that's about it for my oh-so-exciting life at the moment. Today I'm going to try and beat the rain and do some weeding and if I have time later on, take a drive up the mountain for a yummy Devonshire Tea.

Toodlepip for now :)

How did this happen?

I can't believe how quickly the end-of-month stuff has come around again. If things weren't busy enough lately, I'm not only trying to get the routine things done but also correcting the million and one mistakes I've been finding everywhere. Lordy knows how long things have been like that but things like that drive me nuts. Oh btw, I'm talking about work - I keep racing ahead of myself.

Sposed to finish around 3.45 on Tuesdays so I can lead-foot it back to pick the bratski up from karate but I didn't make it home till around 8pm last night. I had today off but this is the first time I've sat down all day. No wait, I lie ... I parked my ass in the dentist's chair for 30 minutes earlier.

Apart from that load of drivel, there's not much time for anything else. We had a kickass storm here over the weekend (I only just worked out it was the weekend, earlier I thought it was only a day or two ago). I heard on the news a gigantic tree came down not far from me but I'm not sure exactly where and I thought it was terribly inconsiderate of them not to give out the address so I could go and load the boot of my car with firewood ;)

Gonna wrap this up now because I'm only babbling and I want to try and get around to you all to see what everyone's up to.

Ta ta for now :)

A quickie

* I've worked so much overtime I've jumped up a tax bracket, fuck it ... but pulling a swifty and, well, I won't say anymore *waves to Big Bro at the ATO* :P

* Got my car back FINALLY! Best it's looked for a long time. They cut and polished it too whereas I usually park it in the rain to wash it hehe.

* I've turned on comment moderation, which might be a pain in the ass considering I don't get on much these days but at least the rest of you won't have to see the idiocy of Tweedledum and Tweedledee any more.

* Delved a little deeper into my stats last night and discovered a few interesting tidbits which I won't talk about here (and this will make no sense to some of you but I know what I'm talking about) ;)

* Ummm, there was something else but I've forgotten.

Anyway, miss you all and hope to catch up soon.

Happy weekend everyone!

It's been so long...

...I've almost forgotten what I used to do online lol.

Gone are the days when the first thing I used to do when I woke up was switch on the comp then make a coffee.

I can go days at a time without bothering about it and I can honestly say I don't miss it at all. I miss catching up with my little circle regularly, but that's all.

I'm busy, busy, busy with work these days and by the time I get home and do all the mum things and get organised for the next day, all I want to do is veg out in front of the tv before bed.

Weekends are now spent driving kids here, there and everywhere, catching up on housework, giving the evil teen driving lessons (she's really good btw) and spending maybe an hour at most deleting spam lol.

Major events this week were:

1. Smashed the car on Thursday morning on the way to mancub's school. Nope, I wasn't a happy lil vegemite. We're both ok but my car and the other guy's car are dead. I'm carless for about a week so I'll have to arrange something today so I can get around next week.

2. It's mancub's 12th birthday today :) Which means I have to get my ass offline now and walk to the supermarket to get supplies for when his friends come over later on. He's having a small 'gathering' (as they call it these days) as opposed to a 'real party' lol. They're sleeping over so a houseful of raving lunatics ... oh what joy ;)

For now, that is all.

Happy weekend everyone.

Thankyou Portugal...

...for letting me wake up to good news on a Monday!

Yaaaaaaaaaaaay Portugal

the Cheeseheads are OUT!

:p@Jess

A snippet

I went to my first basketball game on Sunday. (Only cos the teen was cheerleading and I couldn't be bothered going back and forth).

I was bored outta my brain.

The players were too young and the coaching staff too short (for my taste) ;)

I did get the googly eyes from one of the players' dads but he wasn't single so that made me wanna hit him.

That is all.

Evolution of Dance

Check this out. I love it.

Turn your speakers on

Notice the Wind?

It started as a slight breeze, it quickly grew to a huge, cow-lifting, car-upturning, tree uprooting tornado.

You didn't hear about it on the news? Oh, you lost power huh? Ok, I'll let you in on what it was ...

It was the whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooosh of hot air as Dutch egos exploded when the 'no competition' Socceroos equalled the Cloggies score in the friendly played last night in Rotterdam as a lead up to the World Cup.

Final score 1-1. Stick that in ya dope and smoke it!

Hell Hath No Fury ....

... etc etc

A word to the wise, don't fuck with this little black duck! You have no idea what's been unleashed!

Struggling

I haven't shared much with you all lately ... ok, I've shared nothing, but today I'm struggling more than usual.

A few months ago I joined a support group for people who have been left damaged and in pain by being involved in an abusive relationship due to a particular mental illness.

This group of people have - along with Jess and Seamus - literally been my lifeline.

Today the site is down for maintenance. I'm lost without them. I need my fix. I need my reality check. I need to bitch and moan and cry with people who know exactly what I'm going through.

Thank God it's only for a day.

No, yes, no, maybe, well ... who the hell knows ...

I'm not back but one day I might be, then again maybe not but I was thinking about gravity this morning (while looking in the mirror trying to hide the bloody grocery bags under my eyes) and the thought process led me to ponder this question:

When gravity starts hitting men do their balls hang lower?

... which then led to my second question:

Considering so many talk out of their asses does that mean their tongues start hanging out there?

Opening up the floor for this one (don't you feel special?) ;)

And she says take me away...

Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But looking at her now you'd never tell

Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's praying
Kneeling at the edge of her bed

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
And unfamiliar places

She needs someone to hear her when she cries
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now

And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

Big & Rich ~ Holy Water

Would you care?

If you could see inside my heart,

You would see it's damaged almost beyond repair.

You would see the jagged shards

of your words piercing into it's softness ...

Would you care?

No, I didn't think so.

If you could look into my eyes,

You would see pain beyond compare.

The betrayal, hurt, anger, distrust, sadness

your actions have caused ...

Would you care?

No, I didn't think so.

If you could touch my face,

You would feel my silent tears.

The tears that have left my eyes

sore and swollen from never drying up.

Would you care?

No, I didn't think so.

If you could see into my soul,

You would see the abyss.

Only emptiness left after

everything you took from me.

Would you care?
No ... I didn't think so.

xx

I thought I'd be back. I thought everything could be sorted out.

I was wrong. Again.

If this is life fuck it, I don't want it.

Take care my friends.

Break

Shutting up shop for a while. There are things going on that I have to think about and I need some quiet healing time.

I'll be back, just not sure when.

xxx

Sometimes ya just wanna give up

So ... lol, I've been sitting here sipping coffee and staring blankly for 20 minutes now. Another 10 minutes just went by. It's still dark, pitch black. The only light is from my monitor ~ and it's quiet. The only sounds are the hum of the comp and the tic toc of the clock ... and my typing.

When I'm not typing the clock gets louder ...

tic
toc
tic
toc
tic
toc

... time is marching on, I can see it, I can feel it, and I sit and wonder what I'm doing with it. Apart from making another useless post, I don't have any other answers at the moment.

Fingers Crossed

VICTORIA'S firefighters and fire-hit towns are bracing themselves for another onslaught as extreme temperatures and northerly winds threaten to escalate bushfires burning out of control.
A statewide total fire ban has been declared and towns south of the state's major blazes have been put on alert as the northerlies could sweep flames towards them.

It's 9am and already 27c.

The teenager was planning on meeting her evil poophead b/f in Warburton today (click the map to enlarge and you can see it). Ummm, she's dreaming!

On another note ...

Aussie, aussie aussie,
oi oi oi!
Happy Australia Day.

Up In Smoke

The results of yesterday ....







Luckily it's cooled down a bit today so hopefully they'll be able to get things under control.

Scorcher

It's hot! Damn hot! Freaking hot! Stinking, sweaty, headache-inducing, killer hot!

I wanna be here. Doing this! Cos I don't like getting sweaty unless I'm doing ....

.... this!

Justice for None!

Corby's 20-year sentence reinstated
6:05 PM January 19

An Indonesian court has reinstated the original 20-year sentence given to convicted drug smuggler Schapelle Corby.

Last year Corby's lawyers had successfully argued for her sentence to be reduced to 15 years.
The ABC has been told that the prosecution's appeal against the leniency of that sentence has been successful.

The decision was made last week.
Corby will now serve 20 years in a Bali prison for smuggling 4.1 kilograms of marijuana into the country in a boogie-board bag.

Source: ABC

Sometimes you really have to wonder wtf is wrong with people. I won't even go into the fact they never proved her guilt and to be honest I'm beyond caring whether she is or isn't.

The fact still remains that under THAT system a fucktard who kills over 200 people, including 88 Aussies, and injures many many more, has his sentence reduced to less than two fucking years while she gets 20 for this crap.

Go and eat some chickens you bastards!

Pissed off? Damn straight!

Some 'Stuff'

It's 5.30am. I've been awake since 2. After an hour I gave up, got up and made a (strong) coffee. Here's to another day that starts in the middle of the night. *sigh*

The saga continues with rash-girl. After not being able to get a doc appointment asap, I took her to the local ER the other day. (This is no small thing we're talking about, she's covered from head to toe now).

So we're called in, doc asks what the prob is, she says 'mum thinks I have measles'. She's checked out, asked symptoms, etc and they tell us it's not measles because she's not sick enough. (I think bullshit it's not, you just wait buster) lol.

Guess what? She's now been throwing up for two days straight, the sore throat is worse, the rash is joining up making her look like she has a bad case of sunburn, she's sniffly and snuffly and .... need I go on?

Not measles my ass!

And they say we blondes are dumb?

The teenager stayed at a girlfriend's place Saturday night. When I picked her up late Sunday, she showed me a rash that had developed and it didn't look good so as I went into detective mode, as ya do, asking about anything new she may have eaten, was she outside, did she touch any plants, etc etc, here's what the response was to ....

Me: Where did it start?
Her: In the house
Me: (Slight pause) Yes ok but where?
Her: In the loungeroom
Me: (Stunned silence ... deep breath) Where ON YOUR BODY did the rash start? sheeesh lol
Her: Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh etc etc

No, she's not blonde lol.

Run me over with a bus ... PLEASE!

Three hours sleep and 15 rounds with the verbal equivalent of Mohammed Ali ... with more punches to come.

Oh what a joy. Happy fucking weekend to me.

Memories

A TRIP DOWN MEMORY LANE

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you!

Pinched from Seamus (taaaaaa, you've made my life easier today) hehe

Procrasinator? Not me ;)

Hmm what to do, what to do. I should take the washing out of the machine before it gets stinky, but I'll do that later.

I should also don my sexy gardening clobber and pull some weeds. I should empty the dishwasher too and get rid of the cobwebs and sweep the floors and clean the bath and showers, and the loos too I 'spose, ugggh and put the new rego sticker on my car seeing I should have done that two months ago, but but but ... I only found it again yesterday so pffff.

Think I'll procrastinate a bit more though *clicks another song*. Yeah that's what I'll do. See? I can make a decision today :D

And here lovies, a couple of new random piccies for your boredom enjoyment.
















If there's a mess, she'll get comfy on it!















A small sample of my recent harvest :)

Do you think I speak English?

If you feel like getting a little confused, try this http://smartasses.org/aussiequiz.html

Score for Mushster

You got 20 answers right.
You got 0 answers wrong.

You're a bottler, mate!You are a fair dinkum, ridgy didge, dinky die, true blue, dyed-in-the-wool Ocker-like strine speaker. Well bugger me, you could probably even play a didgeridoo and know the proper way to twirl a billy. Goodonya. Get us another stubbie while you're up, will ya... and have one yourself while you're at it!

This n That

A bit of an update. Sorry I'm not very talkative these days. Part of me is saying to just pull the plug on this thing but I haven't decided yet. Anyway just a few tidbits ....

~ Firstly the garden. Boring I know but tuff lol.

* The tomatoes I planted are finally going great guns. I've got six varieties. I picked the first lot yesterday and threw them in a tossed salad last night and I hafta tell ya people, I was stoked. Very satisfying eating your own home-grown things and mmmmmm mmmmmmmm much tastier than shop-bought too.

* Also picked and threw in the solitary cucumber that was growing lol. Dunno if there'll be any more but that's ok, at least I got one hehe.

* Brown and red onions are doing ok too although I screwed them up when I put them in and planted them too close together ~ but! ~ they have grown into lill baby ones and man they're strong ... sniff sniff lol.

* Last but not least, the strawberries! I saw little pink flowers yesterday so I'll be paying close attention to them from now on and keeping the champagne on ice :D

~ In other (non) news ....

* A few weeks before Christmas, I spent a Saturday morning in the emergency ward with the teenager's boyfriend after he was beaten to a pulp at a party and turned up here at 6am the next morning, bloody, disoriented and barely able to stand.

It's a long and complicated story but the bottom line is yes his mother eventually showed up so I left her with him. After hours of tests and xrays he was released and ummm, guess where she took him? Yep, back here for me to look after (and pissed off before I could say a word).

Bleeding heart that I am, I did look after him and also discovered I'd grown attached to the lill shit because later on when I had time to sit I sobbed my heart out for the kid. Why did I do that and not his own mother? (And yes, I know she didn't).

Anyway things were going along well after that until my main rule was broken - they paid dearly for that. Bleeding heart or not, there is only so much even I can take and the evil teen's boyfriend was thrown out the day of Christmas Eve.

Timing huh?

That's about it. I'm sure there are other things I've missed but I've yapped enough for now.

Back to Reality

I have just had one of the best weeks I've had in a long time. I had the house to myself for 6 whole days and I made the most of every second. I did what I liked, when I liked and spent my time with whom I liked.

It was bliss. For six days I've been in heaven.

Heaven doesn't last though. It came crashing down around me yesterday around the same time the backdoor crashed open and the sound of clammering voices entered the house.

Sigh, it was wonderful while it lasted and I am so very thankful I had that time. I will have it again too .... op een dag!

Happy New Year ...

From Melbourne to you, my heart to yours, I wish all of you a safe and very Happy New Year and let's hope it will be a new beginning for all of us.

Mwaaaaaaaah!

Merry Aussie Christmas

Here's to an Aussie Christmas, where we have no snow or ice,
But the gifts you'll buy are half as good, and cost you twice the price.
Children sit on Santa's knee, and his face is all aglow
As he drowns in perspiration, but he still says Ho! Ho! Ho!

You could always wait till later, for the after-Christmas sale
Where they push and shove to reach the doors, and even brave men quail.
But then there'd be no presents sitting underneath the tree.
No family to come and sit on their bums and have a feed for free.

On Christmas morn, it's pressie time, and as they're handed out
You unwrap yet another tie, and look at it with doubt.
So you needed it like a hole in the head? Well, try to sound sincere
As you thank the giver with a smile. It's what's done this time of year.

You'll all get fat on cake and pud, and no-one will dare question
Or even hint that you've stuffed yourself till you're hit by indigestion.
And while most of the family manages to maintain good will to all,
There's always one who drinks too much and wants to start a brawl.

With luck, you'll stop his mouth with cake. "Try some, it's delicious!"
And if you're even luckier, your guests will wash the dishes.
Then the kids start playing with their toys. It's like a bloody zoo.
And once they've wrecked the flamin' lot, look out! They're after you!

The day is done. They've all gone home, and just look at the mess!
But wasn't it great to have them here? You loved it. Just confess!
And now it's time, regretfully to pack away the tree.
Next year, you'll do it all again. What for? Lord, don't ask me.

Wendy Clarke, 1998

Just some lyrics today ...

Sometimes I wonder
How I'd ever make it through,
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue

'Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me,
And there's no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you, baby
And everything's alright, everything's alright

When I see you smile, I can face the world, oh oh,
You know I can do anything
When I see you smile I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there's nothing in this world that could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew
And when the rain is falling I don't feel it, 'cause you're here with me now
And one look at you baby Is all I'll ever need, you're all I'll ever need

Chorus

Sometimes I wanna give up I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby
And everything's alright, everything's alright

So right...

Bad English ~ When I See You Smile

Sigh

Feeling lonely when you're alone is bad enough. Feeling lonely when you're not is much worse.

Rollercoaster of Emotions

The saying goes ... no-one can make you feel a certain way unless you let them. Yeah well, nice psychology but we humans aren't black and white are we.

Just as someone can't force you to feel a certain way, I don't believe you can force yourself to feel or not feel something other than you do (or don't), sheesh what a messed up sentence.

Different people have different effects on us. Some have a talent for making me feel certain ways. It doesn't mean my head thinks they're right but how we feel emotionally sometimes has very little to do with what we actually think.

I'm waffling.

Probably this has come up today because I've gone from feeling ready to stab someone in the eye with a spork earlier this morning, to positively glowing a little after that.

One person in my life makes me feel ...

... lazy
... worthless
... dependent
... frustrated
... loved - with conditions
... fat
... childish
... stupid
... bored
... selfish
... extravagant
... undervalued

Another makes me feel ...

... loved
... unappreciated
... appreciated
... disprespected
... respected
... soft-hearted

Yet another makes me feel ...

... occasionally loved
... a matryr
... a slave
... unappreciated
... taken for granted
... furious
... worried
... hurt

And last but not least there is someone who makes me feel ...

... loved
... adored
... beautiful
... intelligent
... interesting
... understood
... kind
... sweet
... passionate
... sexy
... selfless
... giving
... patient
... dependable
... trusted

Now I wonder why there's one in particular that I want to spend my time with.

I miss my heart.

Post from a Sims2 Nerd

I think I mentioned ages ago in one of the 'about me' lists, that I love the Sims. Well finally, with this new comp I can play it without having to wait till the other one is free. (My old graphics card was too old, etc). Well, in light of the fact I have nothing else to yap about at the moment ... ok nothing I feel like talking about, let me introduce you to my new couple. They got married last night hehe.




Getting to know eachother



Toasting eachother



Woohoo!



Snuggles :)

That's all from this nerd for now.

Burning down the house

The disaster I thought I'd averted last week has actually happened.

Don't ask me how but the main folders I was worried about keeping have been lost. I can replace programs, I can replace music, I can make new graphics if I have to, I can scrounge around and try to get copies of a couple of things from others I sent them to ... but there are some that are irreplacable.

Of course I didn't lose anything I could replace did I *sigh*

I'm heartbroken at the moment. I feel like my house has burnt down along with all my photo albums ... yeah, it was my extra special photos that I've lost.

:(

Burn baby burn

I've finally done it. I've ordered my new computer!

I have a friend who's in the know about these things so I gave him my criteria ... superdooper graphics card, the mother of all soundcards and FAST!

He rang with prices two days ago and said to give him a call when I was ready ... I said I'm ready! I want it! lol

Soooooooo, while he's working his fingers to the bone building it, I'm working my lill fingies to the bone burning, burning, burning everything I want from this one onto discs.

It'll be here in the next day or two so I won't be around much while it's all happening.

Who knows, maybe it'll give me some motivation too ~ I'm not counting on it though lol.

Help

I may not say much here but there are certain issues I feel very strongly about - Whaling being one of them.

One way I keep track of some of my interests is by being a subscriber of the Greenpeace newsletter, which have been coming in thick and fast over the past few weeks.

I've already sent off letters (snail mail) but also think it's worthwhile adding a few things here.

For those of you who may have missed it in the papers, here's a brief rundown on what's happening at the moment.

On November 8th, a whaling fleet left Japan for the Southern Ocean Whale Sanctuary, south west of Western Australia, intending to kill 1,000 whales, including endangered fin whales.

Yesterday (November 18), Greenpeace issued this statement:

Greenpeace is sending two ships to oppose continued whaling in the Southern Ocean Whale Sanctuary. The MY Esperanza and the MY Arctic Sunrise, leave Cape Town this weekend as part of Greenpeace's largest ever expedition - a year long tour to defend the world's oceans. read more ...

There are several ways everyone can help not only the whales but our oceans in general.

If you're able, donate here.
Ask the Federal Minister for Environment to save our deep seas. Form
Stop pirate fishing in the Pacific. Sign Petition

Have a good weekend everyone.

Ahem ;)

You Are Japanese Food

Strange yet delicious. Contrary to popular belief, you're not always eaten raw.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Hmmm

My poor backspace key is getting a real workout lately and I'm sure my electricity bill has doubled because I sit staring at a blinking cursor and blank screen for so long.

I was going to talk about summer being just around the corner but it's all gone now. The words, not summer. I was going to tell you about the jogger I saw on my way home today, he really cracked me up ... but that's all gone too. I was also thinking about updating you on the evil teens but, blah they're just plain evil, what more do I need to say about that?

I was also going to make this week a "lyrics theme" but ummmmmm, it's already Wednesday so it wouldn't be a week lol.

Looks like I decided to babble about nothing instead. I think I'll go now and google 'deserted islands for sale'. I promised someone I'd do that and we plan to run away lol.

For Seamus :p

There once was a man called Seamy
Who took great pity on poor-me
He popped in one day
To have a lill say ...

... and now he's a nosey bugger who wants to know the story!

Teehee :p

So ... here's both(un)titillating tales.

This was my 23rd post in full:

Picture this ...

A room full of 100 nekkid people and me in a snowsuit, complete with mask, goggles (or whatever they're called), gloves - not a smidgeon of skin showing anywhere - and one evil mosquito.

Picturing it? Got the gist of it? Ok!

Guess what that little sucker is going to do?

It's going to dive kamikazi-style RIGHT - AT - ME!!!!

I will be the only person in that room full of butt-nekkid people to leave covered in mossie bites.

So, if you're having a party and want to keep the little fuckers at bay, invite me. Now I'm off to find some cream before I rip myself to pieces.

As for the veggie-feast, I've had these for years ... and years, and etc. I have folder upon folder upon folder full of graphics and pics because I used to make a lot of e-cards and graphics for other sites and I have a very bad habit of keeping just about everything. I don't like that delete button very much but (I think I've mentioned it before) as I'm trying to unclog this poor 'ol computer and save what I need and want before it dies on me, I'm finding a lot of things I'd forgotten I had.

Welp, there you have it.

And now .... I lay the veggies to rest :D



ps. Firehawk, please don't rate my poetry *grin*

Tagged

I was tagged by Fly and since I'm a good girl (hush people) I'm doing what I'm told.

1. Delve into your blog archive.
2. Search the archives for the 23rd post.
3. Find the 5th sentence, or closest to.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions. Ponder it for meaning, subtext or hidden agendas.
5. Tag 5 people to do the same.

Here's what I found:

I will be the only person in that room full of butt-nekkid people to leave covered in mossie bites.

Oh I remember it well lol. Now, *tags anyone who hasn't done it yet* :)

TGI(almost)F!

**Warning!

If you don't like veggies or you do but you're at work, do not scroll down ;)

Continuing my health kick ...

Five servings a day remember ;)

You Are What You Eat

Enjoy your veggies this week :)

Home again

Hi all. Back home again. The trip was pretty much as I expected and I'm glad to be back.

Having said that though, what I've come back to is total chaos. What can go wrong has, in fact, gone wrong and the only light in my life right now is half a world away but still, it is a very bright, very beautiful light.

So, back to the chaos. I haven't mentioned it before now but the teenager's boyfriend has been staying with us due to family problems ... ok ok and because I'm a sucker and went all soft and said ok. Originally it was only supposed to be for a few days, that has turned into almost 4 weeks now.

It's a real strain, not only emotionally and physically (because it's a lot more work for me) but financially. Oh but his mum did send over $20 the other week ... very generous huh.

So that's that part, next ... my mum has decided (finally) to retire. It's way overdue but oh God kill me now please.

As an only child I get the full brunt of everything, good and bad and my future will now include constant phone calls to talk about nothing and hangups if the kids say I'm in the shower or if I don't respond the way she'd like.

There's also a meeting I've been summoned to next week with a councilor (sp? I'm screwing that word up a lot lately) at the teenager's school and no, I don't have a clue what it's about other than there are probs not only at school but home as well. I have no bloody idea what I'll be hit with when I walk in so blah @ that.

There's more but I'll spare you the details lol.

I haven't been able to get around to all of you yet so forgive me, I will get there.

Thankyou to the sweeties who emailed me about yesterday's post, luv yahs, mwah :)

For others, it was a huge misunderstanding which has now been cleared up and all is well again ~ well, as far as that part of my life goes anyway, the rest still sucks lol.

Tomorrow I'm going away for a few days, five to be exact. I don't want to but it was booked ages ago and it's not something I can get out of.

I won't be able to access a computer (it's highly unlikely anyway) so once I do the rounds of you all I'm outta here because tsk @ me, I still haven't packed yet.

Everyone take care and I'll see you when I get back.

Got this in an email a few days ago and it's so me at the moment ~ thought I'd share.

Yesterday's mush is today's blubbering mess.

Some things never get any easier no matter how long they've been going on or how much you tell yourself you should be used to it.

The headache I've been fighting for three days is now turning into a migraine. It's simmering, I can feel it, I've taken the usual measures and I'll be giving in to it soon. By the time the tunnel vision starts I'll be curled up in a ball in bed, bucket beside me, wishing I was wrapped up in the arms of the only one who can make me feel better.

God how pathetic is this. Now I'm pissed off with myself again. I don't need sympathy, just a good kick up the ass.

Time to give in and take what the meds have to offer. Those sweet waves of drowsiness are beginning to wash over me and I'm going to relish them ... for more reasons than one.

The Mushter's in Mushy Mode

I'm a bundle of mush at the moment. I'm like this a lot but most of the time I keep it to myself. I was sent this song today and I love, love, love it ... and what's more is I love that the person who sent it to me loves it.

Wow, how's that for a sentence lol.

So, if you're not into mush, look away now ;)

Love You More by Racoon

Clouds above go sailing by

I found my meaning in this life

Clear white is flying in my eyes

Underneath a blue, blue sky

The waves come rolling in with the tide

I've been away too long

And every day I missed you more

You look like you did before

Only prettier

Every day I love you more

All the people rushing by, by, by

Looking for meaning in this life

So used up, and blinded by lies

They're underneath the blue, blue sky

The way they seldom seem to smile

I don't know why

'Cause I've been away too long

And every day I missed you more

You look like you did before

Only prettier

Every day I love you more

I love you more

Every day I love you more

And more

'Cause I've been away too long

And every day I missed you more

You look like you did before

Only prettier

And every day I missed you more

And more and more and more and more

I've been away too long

And every day I missed you more

Oh you look like you did before

Only prettier

Every day I love you more

I love you more

Every day I love you more.

Suckitysuckitysucksuck

Sucking ... sometimes it can be a good thing huh ;)

Ah well that's not the kind I'm talking about today. If you're a regular visitor you'll know by now that my life pretty much sucks at the moment. If you're new here I have one piece of advice ... runnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ... run away from here now, as fast as you can and don't look back because my posts suck. My blog sucks. In the frame of mind I'm in at the moment EVERYTHING sucks.

And you know what else? (Besides the fact I always get confused about whether you should really start a sentence with and) I'm so sick of being the 'good girl', of doing what's expected of me, of not upsetting people, the one who picks up after everyone, the one who worries about everything, the one who's thrown aside if something else comes up, the one who waits till everyone else is ready, the one who has to change plans for everyone else .... and the one who is the most evil bitch in the world if I ever say anything about it all.

My New Course

I've decided I'm going to study witchcraft. The first spell I want to learn is to teleport myself. The second will be to do this (but without the fuzzy shit that's happening lol) ...



And on a totally unrelated matter ... why are tampon strings so short?

My Town

Weird things are going on with my computer lately. These weren't the pics I had in mind when I decided to post but the one I was going to use has suddenly disappeared. It's probably somewhere but not showing up in any searches. It happened with some music I downloaded last night too.

The one I was going to show you was much nicer. I pinched it from one of the newspapers a few days ago. It was Melbourne at dusk, with a beautiful pink sunset and the MCG (Melbourne Cricket Ground) lit up.

Anyway I'll get back to the arduous task of trying to fix my pos comp.

Update: Duh! Scratch that, I found it in my "Mess" folder lol.

A Fillerinerer.....

Apologies for the lack of posts. I'm still feeling empty and I know I'm being my usual clam-like self but that's what I'm like when I'm going through a low point.

So, here's a bit of trivia about the past few weeks ...

~ I lost 4kg :/ lol
~ My Dutch is improving (and not just swear words) :p
~ There was a swan that decided it didn't like me (bloody racist) and hissed every time I walked past it
~ Me being 5'4, I always feel like I'm in the Land of the Giants over there
~ Their weather is disastrous for my hair
~ Their weather is fantastic for my skin
~ Booze is cheap, cheap, cheap
~ Ok so is dope but I didn't buy any lol
~ No matter how many times or how long I'm there, I still look the wrong way when crossing the road
~ I was finally able to satisfy my craving for smulrols after too long an absence
~ And appeltaart met slagroom
~ If you're ever stopping over or changing flights in Singapore, get your duty free things there
~ Do not, I repeat NOT be conned into buying one of their "Special Pies" (in Singapore I'm talking about), they are AWFUL lol.
~ I was happy again
~ I was me again

zucht...

Oh, before I forget ...

Dear JI,

May allah rip your heads off, shit down your throats and stuff your penises up your backsides for your recent tantrum in Bali.

Amen!

Ground Control?

More like Major Tom floating around in space.

My life is a farce.

I'm not living where I want to live ~ I'm not living with the person I want to live with ~ I'm not doing what I want to do.

So change it? Can't. I'm a big one for saying everyone has choices but you can only choose to a certain point. Some things are just out of our hands and there isn't a damn thing we can do about them no matter how much we want to.

What do I see for the future? More of the same. Waking up every day, going through the motions like a robot, smiling and saying fine thanks when asked how I am ... occasionally the bubbling volcano inside erupting, but for the most part, dying inside a little more with each passing day.

I'm Home

I'm tired, I feel empty and lonely and miserable.

I definitely made the right decision in going but saying goodbye only gets harder.

That's all. I don't have the words to say any more.

Ta ta for now

Welp, it's time.

I leave for the airport in just under an hour and wanted to pop in to say goodbye. I may get online while I'm gone but who knows ... everything is so up in the air right now.

This morning was so hard. Mancub is having a hard time and of course once he started crying I was a goner. I've left a few little surprises for him though and once I'm gone he should settle down a bit. I just found a note from him tucked into my hand luggage. It said "I'm gonna miss you mum. I love you".

Uggh, now I'm gonna cry again lol.

The teenager was fine. It's almost school holidays again and she has a lot planned, and I've given the evil Gizmo extra smooches.

That's about it. If I do get online at some stage I'll try to poke my head in on you all.

Take care of eachother :)

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xxx

Progression is happening, although some of the details are pretty crappy.

What really made my day yesterday (NOT) is hearing that after - hmm lemme count - approximately 28 hours of travelling (including getting to the airport, stopovers, etc) I can't check into the hotel until 4pm. That means adding an extra 6 hours of no-man's land.

Feeling as stressed as I do at the moment, I really didn't need to hear that. I never sleep much on the long-haul flight so I'm gonna be dead and I'm already dreading the claustrophobia and nicotine withdrawals.

So what's the plan? No bloody idea. Drop my luggage off at the hotel, grab the biggest coffee I can find and sit my ass down under a tree in the nearest park and fall asleep with the hobos and junkies probably. I'll fit in thought cos I'm gonna look like shit.

Doesn't that sound like fun? Wanna come? ;)

The plan of attack today is to tryyyyyyyyyy and finish my tax (yes it's tax time here), pay bills, quadruple check that I've bought enough 'decent' food and frozen enough so the bratskies aren't living on takeaway the whole time I'm gone, print out maps and lists of other hotels, train timetables, umm ummm ummm can't think what else.

Right! I'm off >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

x.x

AAAAAAAAAaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg-gggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh

Sorry, just had to get that out.

Carry on.

I decided yesterday I'm going away. I've got the ticket, I leave next week and I'll be gone for two weeks.

Because of the suddeness there's a lot to organise so I won't be around much.

Crazy? Probably
Terrifying? Absolutely

But it's something I have to do.

All of you take care.

Wanted: Millionaire

Since I have decided my next car will be a Maybach 62 (see pics below) I am now taking applications from millionaires wishing to bankroll me.

I am fairly to please. My only stipulations are:

You WILL leave the toilet seat DOWN and
You will NOT expect sex in return.

There will be no negotiating on these two items.

Sloganize yourself

I got this from Jess and you too, can have one :D

Hmmm?

Got a question? Ask me!


*Disclaimer: I reserve the right to be vague, cryptic and/or unresponsive at any given time :p

Music, music, music

A good friend of mine has started a music blog and as I'm sick of myself and my own crap I'm following her lead and compiling a list of songs. While not exactly a 'best of' list, these are my all time favourite songs.

If you have time, pop in and say hi to Jess ... she's a real sweetheart :)

Some of these you'll know but you may not know the Aussie ones lol. Some are probably not the greatest songs either but they're special to me for one reason or another and they're not in order of preference because I'm going down my playlist (which is now up to 674 coughcough) to remember them all.

* 1927 ~ If I Could
* Alice Cooper ~ How You Gonna See Me Now
* Alicia Keys ~ Falling
* Anthony Callea ~ Rain
* Atomic Kitten ~ Whole Again
* B.J. Thomas ~ Hooked on a Feeling
* Bach ~ Air on a G String
* Bad English ~ When I See You Smile
* Bay City Rollers ~ I Only Wanna Be With You (Oh hush you lot) lol
* Beach Boys ~ Kokomo
* Bill Withers ~ Aint No Sunshine When She's Gone
* Blondie ~ Atomic
* Bob Dylan ~ Just Like A Woman
* Bon Jovi ~ Always
* Bonnie Tyler ~ Total Eclipse of the Heart
* Brian McFadden/Delta Goodrem ~ Almost Here
* Cat Stevens ~ Peace Train
* Cher ~ If I Could Turn Back Time
* Chicago ~ If You Leave Me Now
* Cold Chisel ~ Working Class Man
* Cold Chisel ~ Cheap Wine
* Crazy Town ~ Butterfly
* Creed ~ Hmm, 99% of them lol
* Crowded House ~ Private Universe
* David Bowie ~ Sorrow
* David Bowie ~ Changes
* David Bowie ~ Space Oddity
* Deisel ~ Cry In Shame
* Dewi ~ Left of Center
* Dido ~ White Flag
* Dido ~ Sand In My Shoes
* Don McLean ~ American Pie
* Dr Hook ~ Years From Now
* Dragon ~ Are You Old Enough
* ELO ~ Most of them :)
* Elton John ~ Something About The Way You Look Tonight
* Elvis ~ If I Can Dream (<<<>
* Enrique ~ Hero
* Eric Clapton ~ Tears From Heaven
* Gabrielle ~ Don't Need The Sun To Shine
* George Harrison ~ My Sweet Lord
* Gio ~ Fantasy Girl
* Greenday ~ Boulevard of Broken Dreams
* Heart ~ What About Love
* INXS ~ Need You Tonight & Never Tear Us Apart
* Jet ~ Look What You've Done
* Jimmy Barnes ~ I'd Die To Be With You Tonight
* Jimmy Barnes ~ Still On Your Side
* Jimmy Barnes ~ Stone Cold
* Jimmy & John Farnham ~ When Something Is Wrong With My Baby
* John Farnham ~ Hmm, everything :p
* John Lennon ~ Too many to list
* Kermit ~ Rainbow Connection hehe
* Kylie Minogue ~ Can't Get You Out Of My Head
* Lifehouse ~ Hanging By A Moment
* Lords of Acid ~ Nope, I am NOT gonna tell you the title ;)
* Macy Grey ~ My World Crumbles
* Maroon 5 ~ She Will Be Loved
* Marmalade ~ Reflections
* Massive Attack ~ Angel
* Matchbox 20 ~ Real World
* Meatloaf ~ Can't choose just one
* Missy Higgins ~ The Special Two
* Nelly Furtado ~ Turn Out The Lights
* Nickelback ~ How You Remind Me
* Nirvana ~ Come As You Are
* Outlandish ~ Aicha
* Peter Frampton ~ Baby I Love Your Way
* Phil Collins ~ Awww how do pick just 1 or 2 lol
* Powderfinger ~ On My Mind
* Procol Harum ~ Whiter Shade of Pale
* Queen ~ Bohemian Rhapsody
* Quiet Riot ~ Come On Feel The Noice
* Sade ~ No Ordinary Love
* Santana ~ Smooth
* Shawn Mullins ~ Rockabye
* Silverchair ~ Across The Night
* Stereophonics ~ Since I Told You
* Sting ~ Every Breath You Take
* Streisand/Kristofferson ~ Lost Inside of You
* Sugababes ~ Round round
* Taxiride ~ Everywhere You Go
* The Cowsills ~ The Flower Girl
* The Troggs ~ Love Is All Around
* Tina Arena ~ Chains
* Train ~ Drops of Jupiter
* Twarres ~ She Couldn't Laugh
* Uncanny Xmen ~ 50 Years

There it is and I know I've left some out because I burnt a lot to CD and deleted a few hundred lol.

*Edit ... anddddd because blogger gobbled up my first list, I think I've forgotten some :/ Let's see if it's second time lucky.

Pokes the Unkys

Slapppppppppppppps mood thingie.

Hurry up and work before I resort to making my own :p

My rememberer is broke

A friend, noticing how far away I am lately, sent me this. Very apt at the moment lol.

My forgetter's getting better,

But my rememberer is broke

To you that may seem funny

But to me, that is no joke

For when I'm "here" I'm wondering

If I really should be "there"

And, when I try to think it through,

I haven't got a prayer!

Oft times I walk into a room,

Say "what am I here for?"

I wrack my brain, but all in vain!

A zero, is my score.

At times I put something away

Where it is safe, but, Gee!

The person it is safest from

Is, generally, me!

When shopping I may see someone,

Say "Hi" and have a chat,

Then, when the person walks awa

I ask myself, "who was that?"

Yes, my forgetter's getting better

While my rememberer is broke,

And it's driving me plumb crazy

And that isn't any joke.

Distracted

Looks like I've lost my focus. "The usual" just isn't being done and my to do list keeps growing with nothing being crossed off.

I tried to catch up on a bit of weeding yesterday but Gizmo the evil helper had other ideas. She loves coming out with me but her idea of weeding is sitting on the exact spot I'm trying to get done ... or waiting till I've got one half out then whacking it out of my hand ... or 'hiding' behind a bush, wiggling her butt, waiting to pounce on me as soon as I reach for something.

I'm not complaining though, she makes a dull job fun (albeit a hell of a lot slower lol). Actually, I probably only pulled out a few handfulls before giving up and playing in the fallen leaves with her.

Anyway, I'm not sure why I'm writing this boring crap so I will leave you with another ...

TGIF

... and for those of you living in the past, welcome to the future when you hit midnight lol. ;)

10286.00 miles
16560.46 kilometers

That's the distance between my heart and me.

Pretty hard to live with.

ps

And I forgot to mention ... If you use msn and want to get the music thingie working with winamp instead of mediaplayer let me know ... now all I have to do is get my mouse wheel scrolling again :/

ta taa >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

mumblejumbles

I have to get this off my chest. It's been bugging for a couple of weeks now. Call it a feeling, intuition, whatever you like, but I've had a niggling feeling I may have pissed someone off. I don't know how or why ... it's just there.

I'm not going to obssess over it because .. well to be honest I can't think of a damn thing I could have done and I have a shitload of other things going on at the moment that have to take priority or I'll go insane.

So if I have I have no idea what I've done but I'm sorry. If I haven't, forget you read this people lol.

In other news ... not a lot ... well, a lot but it's more of the same.

I'm having really evil thoughts about someone at the moment and that makes me feel rotten for being such a horrible person.

On the other hand, I'm having really wonderful thoughts about someone else so maybe it'll balance itself out? lol

Yeah ok I'll dream on lol.

Anyway, in the words of my favourite band, Creed ... what's this life for?

I'm off to hit repeat on Six Feet From The Edge. Happy weekend everyone.

Uggh

I had a big long ramble that I was going to post tonight but when I finally got home and came online I got sidetracked by a problem with my mouse and wouldn't you know it? Ramble all gone :/

I've just spent the past two hours hunting around for info but of course I can't find my problem amongst all the geeky, nerd talk about reinstalling drivers and blah blah blah.

One good thing though, is that reading through all that techie stuff (there's that word again) puts me to sleep so I think I'll go and veg on the couch and fall asleep during whatever movie is on tonight.

The past week has been really draining but for once I'm looking forward to waking up tomorrow :)

Cure All?

From my brief browse around blogland this afternoon I see quite a few people are going through a lot of stuff at the moment.

I almost didn't say 'stuff'. It's such a shoddy word when others are much more appropriate (and less childlike) ... but I like the word 'stuff' for some weird reason. I like the way it sounds, I like the innuendos you can create with it, I like what you can do with 'stuff'.

Anyway I digress. Here's something for those of you going through whatever 'stuff' you're going through. STUFFFFFFFFFFFFF this in your gobs and feel better. ;)






Oh and Firehawk, I've linked you. Hope you don't mind but if you do I'll take it off and all I'll do is cry and sulk and pout for a while and won't post for a whole week and and and .... (how's that for a manipulative guilt-trip hidden down the bottom in small print)? ;)

Where I Am ...

Well, apart from crawling into my cave for a while, I finally got the motivation to try and fix my sound (which I've done). When things get a bit overwhelming I tend to be like a cat who crawls away to die alone.

Emotionally, I'm at opposite ends of the spectrum at the same time ....

Heaven and Hell
Agony and Ecstasy
Love and Hate
Overjoyed and Terrified
Lost and Found

Where I started to forget to sign into msn, now it's the first thing I think of again.

So, yeah, that's about where I am.

What is it that draws two people together? Draws them to eachother so strongly that they feel powerless to stop it?

What keeps drawing them back even when the powers that be have deemed things impossible.

Even when you tell yourself this can't happen, this should not happen, stay away, leave it be.

What is it about that one person who brings tears to your eyes, a genuine smile to your face and fills your heart just with a simple "hi"?

These are the questions I'm asking myself today.

Seafood and See Food

I received these pics in an email a week or two ago and every time I go to my inbox I find myself having another look. There's something about them I find fascinating.

As I'm up early this morning (bah! lol) I took the opportunity to find some info (all I had was underwater restaurant in Israel). Here's what I found out:

"This amazing restaurant is 6 meters (over 20 ft.) below the surface of the Red Sea, with thick Plexiglas windows that give you an octopus-eye view of the surrounding fish, corals, and other creatures. The decor is fantasy oceanesque, with sand floors covered by a layer of clear epoxy, velvet, sea urchin cushions on the chairs, starfish lighting fixtures and wavy blue underwater light filtering through the subsea pavilion from natural sources by day, and artificial sources by night.

The details are so well done that the effect is enchanting-you find your attention torn between the underwater vistas outside the windows, and the interior decor, overflowing with marine shapes and textures (the work of a young Israeli, Ayala Serfaty, whose aquatic designs have received international attention and exhibition). Not resting on its one-of-a-kind location and design, the Red Sea Star serves meals that are quite good. Dennis, a fish from the Red Sea, leads the list of well-prepared fish (though you may not feel comfortable dining on a sea creature while its family and friends glide past the windows). Grilled ostrich fillet in a Dijon berry sauce with mushrooms; spare ribs in a melon and chile sauce; as well as pastas and salads round out the menu. If you dislike smoke, request the no-smoking area when you make your reservation. "

I also discovered it's not the only one either. You can see the one in the Maldives here.

Anyone wanna go a'travellin?